I spent countless hours today looking through my facebook pictures. Then decided to check out my photobucket account. Brought me back to a lot of memories. Happy, sad, unforgetable memories and all around a huge smile to my face. It got me to thinking where I'm at in life.

Looking at pictures from when I was thirteen to now, it was shocking. I realized how when I was much younger all my pictures consisted of alcohol or parties. It was all about party party party. Thinking back, that's all I cared about. Ditching school, drinking, getting high. A very stupid stage in my life. A stage a would not trade for the world. I met many life changing people because of situations I put myself in. Many intellectual conversations that I can remember to this day practically word for word. And just a bunch of teenage idiots living life the way we thought it was meant to be.

Getting to pictures from the last year or two I miss my clubbing times. Looking at the people I used to always be with constantly, I miss that the most. Clubs, bars, guys and just non stop night life. Slept all day and went out all night. Couldn't really ask for more. To me it was a highlight of my life. I look at how many friends I don't even talk to but I miss them. I wonder what they're up to now. I wonder if they're still keeping up with the night life like I used to. I guess it all got a lot harder with my best friend getting married, exing out a close friend and college. Mainly meeting my boyfriend made me calm down a lot.

Don't get me wrong I don't regret coming to where I am now but I miss it all. I miss the parties, the clubs, the limos, the alcohol, the entire night life. I'm still so young and feel like I should be continuing. I should be out there partying and just enjoying it all. After all I live in a party city. I wish I could find the girl who wanted to always go out. It's almost three months I don't even touch a drink. Truly I feel proud of that because of the amount I once consumed just it makes me wonder. I wonder where I would be today if I had not slowed down? But I wonder who I'd be hanging out with on a Thursday night? Which club would we be at? And where's the after party?

I miss the wild party city girl I was less than 6 months ago.